I had a bad dream today. During my afternoon nap (of course I only sleep if/when the boys do) I dreamt I was getting weighed at the doctor’s office. The scale showed I had gained 77 pounds!!! On top of that, in my dream the nurse told me that my feet smelled too! Lol. What is up with that?! I’ve really come to fear the doctor’s scale because each time I have an appointment, I think my weight will be fine and so far EVERY time I have been shocked at the amount I’ve gained. Since I am going back on Thursday I suppose it’s just my insecurity coming out. At the same time, it annoys me that I care so much. Why do I let it bother me….I’m growing a BABY for goodness sake! In my heart I know my first concern is the baby’s health and I pray about it all the time and try to do everything I can to take care of myself (and him). Yet my weight issues keep creeping into my head it bothers me that I waste my time thinking about it. It’s interesting though because I really feel your body responds to each pregnancy in a totally different way. With each of my boys my experience was night and day, and this time I’m learning once again from my body. Maybe it’s because I’m getting older, maybe it’s because I’ve already carried 2 children full-term but the weight has piled on in new areas and it’s not because I’ve been pigging out either. It’s just a natural reaction because my body is now about FUNCTION instead of form. Anyway, hopefully I will let that sink into my brain and I won’t stress so much about every little stretch mark, bulge, and flab.:) My goal is still to complete a marathon in 2007 so I’ll have plenty of time to worry about burning calories later. Right now I just hope my little bundle is getting all the nutrients he needs, despite mom’s waistline.:)
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